Turning Tables

Bogor. My Corner. Nov 23rd 2014. 08:59 pm.

Hi you.

Perhaps, this is the last time I write about you. Well, it's not about pathetic love-life drama thing that might be you've found on my previous post. It's just something that I've inspired by my friend @RahnePutri here about The Plan.  

Yesterday, I had discussion about resolution with some of my friends. Someone mentioned about financial planning: what's exactly you really want? what you really need? what's your objective? those kind of things in future. Well, I have to admit, after I've been through all of these and tried so many things in order to run away from your shadow. I was thinking: why don't I get back to myself and reshape the plan for myself? Instead of over-thinking about you.

Because, honestly, after accidentally I read your post on your blog about "the settle down" things and your dream husband, plus you said you've already found him on that man. And I realized for sure, the man who you talked about is not me. It was like a bomb exploded in my chest. Heavy slap laid on my face. My effort and faith is just like a one hand clapping. Damn.. 

But well, if you didn't see a future in me, maybe someone will do. Because of what? because of these…

#1. I just started a small financial planning. Now, I am 26 years old. Associate Account Director in a multinational company. Have own salary. Single. Have no girlfriend, not even a wife, no kids, and live without any encumbrances. I can easily count my assets and manage my own saving. Even-though I NOT a super genius boy who understand forex or stock exchange. But I will contact a financial consultant in the very near future in order to help & manage my assets. So, Financial Consultant is my 1st priority next year.

#2. I will start to put an investment on Life Insurance & Education Assurance. Meaning, if I fall down sick (or even dead), I will have a bunch of money to cover it. And of course, if finally I have kids and thinking about their school, my wife would not worry about that, because all of it - is secured. Nice huh? :p

#3. It's not about the revenge, but my wife will be happy, slim and sexy instead of going to be fat, because of point #1 and #2 above. I can do a cooking. Dude, trust me, I'm good on it. I'll give her hot-sweet-jasmine tea in the morning when she wake up. I will try my best to make her happy 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, and 365 days a year.

#4. Where do we live? I don't fucking know, maybe in a simple-minimalist apartment in the city like Jakarta, Singapore, Dublin, Tokyo or NY. Or even in a Truck / Caravan like Meredith and Derek in Gery's Anatomy series. Or maybe in a small wooden cabin at the foot of Mount Rinjani, Lombok. Well whatever it is, we will call it a "home" not a house. But in fact, I will buy a property in Sentul City, Bogor, as my dream since I was in elementary school. Seriously.

#5. Next year, there is NO fancy trip-plan to Europe, US, or Aussie - cost by my own pocket unless it's a business trip or relocation. I have to re-think about point #1, #2 and #4. But still, I will do diving and explore the beauty of Indonesia, and spread to the world that we are strong and beautiful country. Just proud being Indonesian.

#6. I will keep my body healthy. I don't want to lose this flat six-pack abs because of beer or alcohol. I don't want to kill my lungs because of weeds. I just have control it. I will keep running, take a half-marathon next year, try Bikram Yoga, join Muay Thai class, eat Paleo food, and of course playing basketball with the bros.

#7. As a moslem. I'll try to keep duha & tahajud as my routine. And try to be a better Imam for myself - at least.

Well, there are still many things in my mind beside seven points above. But all I want to tell you is… good luck, I hope that man is truly better than me. He can love you more than I do. He can protect you and be your faithful partner in sickness and health, in good times and bad, and in joy as well as in sorrow. He can support you in your goals, honor and respect you, to laugh and cry with you, and to cherish you for as long as you both shall live.

Good bye, love. I will let myself go. 

--

M!

"...I can't keep up with your turning tables

Under your thumb, I can't breathe

So I won't let you close enough to hurt me

No, I won't ask you, you to just desert me

I can't give you what you think you gave me

It's time to say goodbye to turning tables, to turning tables

Under haunted skies I see

Where love is lost, your ghost is found

I've braved a hundred storms to leave you

As hard as you try, no, I will never be knocked down..."

Courtesy of GleeWarrrd: http://www.youtube.com/user/GleeWarrrd