Ngopi Doeloe, Bandung. 08 November 2013. 11.45 pm.
C.S Lewis said: "Failures are finger posts on the road to achievement" and Robert F. Kennedy said: "Only those who dare to fail greatly can ever achieve greatly". If I translate it to Indonesian quote, it will be "Kekalahan adalah kemenangan yg tertunda".
So what is happening to me at the moment? Yup, I am sick and tired with the failures. Failed in career and failed in personal life. Let me make clarify this, failed means I can't finally get it. I lost. Don't get me wrong. It's more into something that you can't achieve yet.
Recently, I've been doing some interviews process with some global-multinational company for certain position. As you already knew, I really want to go abroad, have a fantastic career as Indonesian expatriate in SG, KL, Tokyo, or even to the ultimate New York City at the final chapter of my career.
A year ago, I have successfully passed 7X interview process for Ads Operations in Google Singapore, but at the end after the final interview with the boss, she said NO. I failed. Couple months ago, I have successfully passed all the interview sessions for Account Manager at XM Asia in KL Office, Malaysia. But then, there was a 'hire freeze' due to bilateral issue between two countries (and I assume it is also because of their unstable P&L balance). So I failed.
It was sucks! Really really sucks.
But I tried to figure it out: why? what exactly happened to me? Why you were not allowed me to get it, oh My Dear Lord?
Slowly, I found the issues. 1st thing is "Maybe you are not ready enough for this capacity and responsibility". The 2nd thing is "Your environment are still need you. Your family. Your colleagues. Your client." and the 3rd - as the biggest obstacle - is "You are not grateful about all the things that you have so far."
Please forgive me, Lord. I didn't meant it.
Okay, if I take a look to the other side, I just got promoted as Associate Account Director couple a months ago in XM Gravity. I have super & powerful team-mates. I have exciting projects and campaigns. And I have challenging clients as well. So be grateful, dude!
So after all, I took a deep breath. Think. Reshape the strategy. I need more to be patient. Keep the faith. Keep fighting and believing. In Bahasa Indonesia: ikhtiar, ikhlas and pasrah. Cos the best is yet to come and it is just a matter of time.
Bismillah. :)
Note:
At the moment when I write this blog, I'm in the middle of interview process for a position at Google Asia Pacific in Singapore, as her replacement in OPG - Indonesia. Because she will flying high to the biggest video platform, called YouTube. if I finally got it, the game is still ON.
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M!
